thanks

Uncle L, you're gone now. I never got to know you that well. You were an odd duck without a doubt troubled by your childhood. But I want you to know, there were birthdays I cried when I got your card. God I just was thrilled, happy, thankful that you remembered and took the time.

M, you just keep on keeping on. You make your mind up and do it.

M&D, yeah you did the 'best you could'. I still can barely get over the fact you both seemed to view us all as a burden of some sort and on the other hand needed us to give your lives meaning. It's sad in a way, I can't help either of you anymore. You really did do a pretty good job. None of us a world-shakers, but none of us killed anyone or are sucking anything out of the world.

I get some awesome highs and then cough, and stumble.

Lots of people do things for me. It seems like when I'm down, they're "supposed to do more."

Nope, of course that's dumb thinking. I need to take my ex-MIL advice and Just Do it. Worry about nothing. Jeesus, I'm too old to give nothing back to people.

Stop hiding behind lazy.

Procrastination

Take your time, but I always do and just never start.

I keep tying work together with punishment. As a kid I had to pick rocks in the yard as a punishment. I can't even remember what the hell the issues were. But I sure remember picking baskets of rocks. Really teaches one how things can be crap. Or are crap I suppose.

Just don't have the where-with-all to get started and get things finished. If it appears that the job isn't going to come out perfect, it is especially a chore.

Even trying to bed a lovely, jessuuus. I pull back and have missed some gloriously good opportunities.